inspired by the conversation that Jess Constable started, Ez, Erin and Nichole decided to partake in a post that exposes their insecurities, quirks and other topics they normally do not discuss. after reading through many of the posts that other brave bloggers have written (the full list can be found on Ez’s blog, Creature Comforts), i decided to do a little reveal of my own. so here it goes…
i feel like i’m too late to the game, when it comes to blogging and starting my own letterpress/stationery business. i try to always stay positive and push forward and trust that it will all work out. it is really difficult to look around and see other people being better at these things and successful, too. i sometimes think that i’ll never make it to that level. ever.
i am ridiculously self-conscious and don’t appreciate comments about my weight. i am naturally petite. it’s the way i have always been and i’m well aware i have the body of a 12 year old boy as opposed to a 27 year old woman. i’ve always struggled with being okay with my stature but it doesn’t help when people exclaim, oh my goodness, you’re so thin! or when people post the pictures of curvy vs. thin women with the context that curves are preferred and much sexier. i know the root of this is about loving myself and my imperfections and how things are.
i feel like i don’t fit in, pretty much any where. i have some terrific, close friends and a wonderful family but i’ve never been “popular” or had tons of friends. i always feel like a bit of an outcast and that i’m not necessarily someone you like right off the bat. i’m quiet and painfully shy and when in new social situations, i prefer to sit back and take things in. i’ve gotten better with age but i still feel like i’m never fully part of the crowd.
on a somewhat positive note… i am obsessed with my kitties (which i think i may only make mention of in my about section). if i could take pictures of them all day and blog about their crazy shenanigans, i totally would. actually… anyone who follows me on instagram knows this to be true.
for those of you who took the time to read this, thank you. this wasn’t exactly the easiest post for me to write, especially since i’m generally reluctant to share too much personal stuff on the interwebs. although maybe i’ll start incorporating little bits of my life more often. if i was able to open up this much, there’s no reason i can’t show or talk about the personal happenings of my life. :)
